I hate myself. I hate my life. I'm scared of my future because Im too lazy to even start it, I don't want to keep doing this it's so stressful. My mom had a stroke when I was 7, she always acts really unhinged and a few times has dug her nails into the skin and stuff. My dad's an alcoholic and hates himself, he's always "woe is me" to his literal daughter, my mom had been cheating on my dad on and off for years. I told my dad about it and the after effect was constant screaming and yelling. My parents fight a lot, for my whole life they have, wether it's an argument or full blown screaming but my mom is always scratching my dad's arms really bad and my dad has punched her in the face. Anytime I hear a loud noise in the house I'm immediately scared. (Note, I have food, clothes, electricity, water and things that aren't needs, I live in a nice house and my dad has a stable job. I'm not in danger.)