Rant #17825

For the longest time I wanted to be a mom and to care for a child. But now that just seems out of reach. I am grateful to have loved once but I don’t think I have it in me to love again or maybe I haven’t met anyone. But now I have a severe fear or passing things down to my children. I don’t want to taint my future husbands lineage with mines. And it really pains me