I am a female in a relationship and do not want to share my partner. Recently, my boyfriend pressured me into trying a polygamous relationship with him and my best friend. We are currently in a trial phase, but I hate it and want it to just be him and me. This situation is reopening old relationship wounds and causing me severe emotional stress, including panic attacks. My gut hates this entire setup, but my heart still loves him. I want to tell them both that I do not want this. Am I a crappy girlfriend for saying no? After telling my bf and best friend I didn't want to do it they both lost the shit on me, my bf wanted to off himself and a lost a best friend. The emotional pressure of this is a lot.. and recently he has became more distant with me (which is my biggest fear in a relationship) and now that school is back in session I feel like between the mental struggles with this relationship might effect me in the long run... But I love my bf but is it to much that I should end it?.