pt3) I wish I felt bad for her but I don't. I can't, I didn't eat for two weeks because of what my triggering made me remember- I feel like a part of me died. I can't describe it truly. I was naive for loving her, trusting, her believing that our former relationship was good and pure. When I searched for answers I honestly didn't expect to find what I did. I never had malicous intent in my intial search. She lied to me so many times, to the point where I don't believe anything that comes out of her mouth. She didn't even tell me that she was in highschool and in the allegation they said she was held back a year, but in another server we were in she said some other bullshit as reason of why she was still in high school, but with the reason reversed? I don't even think she was 18 years old, because of all of this, yet she hangs out in 18+ servers so I felt I didn't even have a reason to ask her how fucking old she was.