There's this whole situation with someone I really like. She's my crush, but she's straight, and I've liked her for a long time. I told her how I felt before, and she was actually really kind about it, but I still have feelings for her. I've been trying to just act like a normal friend, but lately I've been overthinking everything and worrying that I've somehow made her uncomfortable or stressed her out. I care about her so much that sometimes I end up blaming myself for things I probably can't control. And then there's everything else going on in my head on top of that. Sometimes I feel like dying, and I've struggled with hurting myself before. I don't want to go into details, but recently I got scared I might hurt myself again. I moved away from anything I could use, and I'm okay right now, but I'm still scared of where my thoughts can go.