My cousin has a big fucking head. I can’t stand him. We used to be really close when we were kids. As we got to our teens we slowly became less close. He’s two years younger than me. He’s always had this arrogant personality about him. We are both from a different country and he thinks that he speaks that language better than me because he’s been to that country more and I’m not very confident and so he always likes to show off and speak that language even though we are in America. I think in the back of my mind every time I try to speak that language I get self-conscious because of him. Him and his older brother also bully my older sister. That’s why I don’t allow myself to get close to them because they might bully me too. Before my cousin would facetime my sister and they were close. I always wondered what was wrong with me. There is absolutely nothing wrong with me. It is all him. I look at everything clearly and I start to wonder. I really hate him.