I miss him. But I don’t think I want him back. I made my choice. But still my remember the way he made me feel, and the memories I have with him. And they feel so vivid so so strong as if I am reliving the moment. And feel those special and sweet moments we shared in my head. It hurts bc it is only in my head. My stupid head. My stupid heart won’t get over him. I am scared I won’t find anyone better. And I should have gave him just one chance…….He made me feel safe, loved, chosen. And I trusted him so much. Enough to cry and be vulnerable with him. We got so close in a short amount of time. Things got so deep so fast. So much of my heart was involved. But yeah I am trying to move on. I still stand on the reasons why i ended things, but yeah I don’t have anything bad to say about him, he was genuinely such an amazing guy too. But I still miss him. And the more time that goes on I thought I would be more over him, but I just miss him more. Idk if that is normal. But yeah