when i was in 4th grade i became friend with this girl abby. i think she was funny and i looked up to her since she was i guess a popular girl. she started making weird jokes around me. the first time i called her she told me to go on reddit and look up the word porn. i saw many videos. she kept making weird jokes. after that i started thinking about these videos. it started to take over my thoughts and i couldnt stop watching. i started to have parasocial thoughts about celebrities, crushes, etc. i also started having innapropriate thoughts about my goddamn family and even my pets (gladly, i did not do what these thoughts were telling me). What abby told me to look up still affects me deeply to this day. i am glad i stopped being friends with her.