I am trying so hard to be positive. School is starting and I dont want to go. The love of my life left school since he moved and my friends, I feel like they hate me. They havent even checked up on me during the summer. And the one that did, she doesnt want me to do well at all. I try venting to her but she twists my words and I dont trust that she keeps quiet so that's why I dont tell her anymore. My other best best she found new friends so I cant even talk to her anymore because she changed. I really feel like I am alone. My parents don't understand I am struggling- well my mom is but she cries about it when I tell her so now I am forced to handle this myself. I want to do good academically but I am falling behind because I just feel so depressed. Anyone got any suggestions what to do? The only time I feel happy is when I just read my books but thats what I have been doing to escape reality and so reality gets worse and worse. My mindset is so negative I dont know how to fix it.