to start this off, I cant tell the difference when it comes to different kinds of love. they often just get mixed around into a mess I cant understand. I've lost friends and prevented connections bc of just not knowing what I was feeling and wanting to get it out my head. But somewhat recently I've began to feel a way for my best friend that I've never felt its like I don't just love her in a platonic way but its not like in actively seeking her out romantically. heck I don't even know if I even feel romantic love at all. And its not like I can talk to anyone about it bc like hell imma talk to my parents Abt a girl as a girl, and I don't feel comfortable talking abt it with of my other friends, AND she is my Bsf the person I'm closest to and am the most comfortable with in many ways but bc its Abt her that's an obvious no. what makes it even worse is I'm not sure if she cares as much for me as I do her and I wouldn't blame he and I'm not asking her. tbh I'm scared of her response.