There are so many confessions of suicideality on here I want to scream. I want to reach out to all of them but can't... if you are feeling things are too heavy please reach out to talk to someone! There are people who care out here even if they have never met you and will never ever know you! Call -> 988 Suicide and Crisis Lifeline in US & Canada. International lifeline lookup directory -> findahelpline (with the usual ending for websites)