Rant #16864

I went into depression at around 12 year old, I don't know when and how'd it went wrong, I keep asking myself if maybe I'm just being dramatic. I'm 20 year old now and I still keep falling back into depression every now and then. It's hard living my daily life I can barely speak to people, getting out of bed is getting hard, just being in the crowd is hard. Idk how and when will I get better, i thought I was getting better but it's useless