part 2 of my rants i genuinely wanna break smth cuz like first off my parents are absolute a-holes and i just dont want to do anything to do with them.. im emotionally not connected to them in any form. 2nd my girlfriend who is the only reason i havent killed anyone is now pissed at me and i totally get y but u dont gotta take out ur anger on me like bro i got my own stuff and im tryna have fun with you and her mom is such a BISH like UGHH everything i try doing just backfires im running on 2 hrs of sleep and havent gotten proper sleep in like the month and i have panic attacks and only she knows but cant do anything and i just wanna cry but that would mean letting my defenses down and my parents will see me as i am i cant have that cuz ill start yapping stuff and they will possibly find out that im bi and that will be catastrophic cuz im asian and that means disgrace to ur family and yea like im helpless here ~sam