I feel like I am failing as a boyfriend. I have always had struggles making a move because as a kid a lot of what I did made people go straight to anger and I don’t want that again. She always says how she wants me to just be confident but I always remember the anger others felt when I was confident. I love her and I wanna fix this. I feel more comfortable around her than my own family yet I feel like she thinks I’m being mean and I’m not a good boyfriend. I always think she is wanting to leave. I fear she actually wants to leave because she is everything I ever wanted, but the things I do I fear make her think I don’t love her. Also to add on I struggle with Alexithymia and I really really can’t talk about how I feel. And I feel my inability to talk to her about myself is making her not comfortable around me. She might think I’m hiding something or I don’t trust her. I trust her with everything. I love her.