im so fucking tired of them. my parents, friends people. so fucking tired. i cant keep on going. my parents are bitches, sometimes are sometimes not. so fucking fed up. i cant get it out of my damn mind when my dad nearly killed me. im so fucking tired. i dont want to kill myself, but i may as well be. im trapped, trapped, trapped. the only reason i burst today is because someone asked if i was okay. and no. no, im not. but i didnt say that. i didnt say a damn word. because they'd fucking find out. damnit, im so tired. im supposed to be going downstairs in this damn house just to eat and i dont want to because their there. i do not want too but i have too. im so sick and tired. im just tired. please, i just want someone to lean on. someone who doesnt leave, someone who won't tell, someone who'll be there. but thats too much to ask for one person. so, ill bear it alone. ill say this, and ill fuck it up, fuck someone up all over again. because thats what i do. use people, than leave them