i’ll be 20 in 3 months. my mom died unexpectedly when i was 18 from stage 4 breast cancer. been doing online school for 4 going on 5 years now. recovering from a major reconstructive surgery i had 3 months ago due to chronic foot pain (deformed bone structure). overweight my entire life. got one friend. isolation. no purpose. no drive. no motivation. what do i do with my life.