I feel deeply like shit I dont want to continue on anymore I feel empty and alone but I also cant help but to feel like I deserve this and maybe even worse thats coming my way I was in a relationship for 2 years it was stressful but to me it meant everything I was mentally abusive to my ex and now she got someone better and ik them they minipulated her once before and I found out they talked out their issues and are good to go and it hurts so badly ive changed and taken accountability for my actions I even took care of her when he wasnt there for her she was also mentally abusive in the relationship but we both changed witch was why I thought its worth another shot since we both changed and could make this time like no other she led me on and my friend keeps telling me abt it that the past plays into this and ik I deserve this I deserve worse actually but I feel so empty without her I still have my favorite picture of us on my phone I still have the notes she would write me it hurts