i met a guy from online i liked. i didnt realise he'd be with his boyfriend and i was really drunk and let them both have sex with me. they flew out to see me again and we stayed together for weeks. They say they love me and talk to me a lot and the guy constantly talks about how much he likes me more than anyone but he has a bf and i feel like im just being used for sex. i have bpd and im obsessed with him unhealthily it makes me angry and sad everyday and i cut myself and binge and purge as a result of it. i long for love so much so i wont leave the situation despite how horrible it makes me feel knowing he just sees me as an easy whore. i dont know what to do my entire life ive been used and abused by men and i just want true love so i let them do whatever they want. nothing will change my situation until they get bored of me so i lose either way