I was on a call with my friend and I was screen sharing like watching videos and I didn't know that it bother her and she said "shut up" but she was playing a game and whenever she plays that game she says "shut up" like to the characters in that game a lot so I didn't think anything of it but she was actually saying shut up me and than she said "bye I'm hanging up" and now I feel really bad and I'm getting really bad thoughts I almost just choked myself to death and everyone else is asleep cuz I'm in a different time zone and I don't know what to do I have no one that I can vent to I don't know what to do