Rant #16290

i seriously want to kill myself. i’m lying to quite literally everyone in my life because i feel like i’ll be so looked down upon if i ever stop lying. i’ve fucked up so hard, i don’t go anywhere, i don’t do anything, i’m actively unemployed and i don’t even go to school anymore. i probably am depressed but i can’t even check that out and at the end of the day, all i’ll ever be is a failure who doesn’t amount to shit