I'm so bad with kids, I literally freeze and say nothing and just stare at them. After a few seconds I can see them getting confused and weirded out or even getting upset. I don't hate kids (don't necessarily love them either) but they feel like a different species altogether. I have always had extreme social anxiety so I am already awful at social skills. I try to get better a lot and read self help and put myself out there, but then I have to deal with a little kid and I realize how delusional I was thinking I was making progress. I instantly feel like a monster who can't connect with human emotions in their most primitive form, and I hide it by dressing up and trying to have a social life with adults. It ruins my mood and I begin to question my existence or why I am allowed nice things if even children don't like me.