you know it’s bad when you actually search something like this to just let out everything you’ve been feeling. idek at this point, everything feels so hopeless and it’s like the worst scenario i have always imagined has happened. just two years when i felt like i need to quit and just give up, but somehow ended up taking the chance to move to a different place. at that point even when i thought a lot about if i should take a loan for my master’s, it felt like maybe i will be able to get a job and i can clear it and actually do something for myself and family. now three months after graduation i feel like i’m in hell. unemployment, living situation, expenses, no money and a loan. i feel like i have hit the rock bottom and idek when the situation is going to improve. im in such a helpless state because i feel guilty for everything, i cannot depend on parents for money, my sister has her debts, my friends have their own stuff to figure out. i just feel so dead.