i’m not sure how to write this, but i’m just going to try. i feel envious of people who are in relationships and i feel like something is wrong with me because of it. like i know im slightly overweight, but yet i see bigger people get into relationships and i just can’t. i never experienced someone telling me they liked me. only that i liked them (not that i would try to make it known) it hurts me a lot. i feel suicidal about it too. i also just feel numb that i eat my feelings because of it too. i just want to be seen, why can i not feel what a relationship feels like. why. am i so alone in this. no one in my real life knows what im experiencing. i dont know if im just naive or stupid to just want be in love but i feel like im missing out on an experience that everyone else understands. i don’t want to be old and single. i would hurt myself if that is what i have to be. i don’t want to live if i’m alone. i just cant.