my parents and my sister seem to hate me so much sometimes, like they say that they love me but then they talk bad to me I don't listen to me. I suffer from anxiety and have panic attacks frequently but my sister's says that it's all in my head and I am just making it up to have attention. My dates with my psychologist were only two or three times (they were free btw) and then my mother didn't want me to go again because she said that it didn't work and that I just need to control my emotions. My sister mocks me and says that if I'm dependant on my psychologist. That was in October 2024, since that, they haven't got me a date again with any psychologist I just don't want to live anymore but I think about those people that I care about and I can't kms because I know that would make them sad and if I kms my parents would treat my two sisters bad and I don't want them to suffer the same that I'm suffering because I care about them. I just hate myself so much.