I don't feel like myself. I honestly have the hardest time venting cuz i get dismissed. When I look upset, people never care. I can't even trust any of my close friends without them telling lies abt me, talking shit abt me, or spreading rumors abt me. Last time, someone i thought i was close to told my ex i was talking shit abt him and that i wanted him back. i dont. I broke up with him bc he made me uncomfortable, so i didnt want to hurt him and i broke up with him. He was rlly sad and i felt terribly bad abt it, but it was for my own comfort. i told her that i was rlly upset abt it, i even started crying a bit, but she mixed it up and told him i was talking shit abt him and saying that i never rlly wanted to be with him. He texted me the next night and said how much of abad person i was, and that no one rlly liked me for how i acted. when he said that, i immediately started overthinking everything. my personality, my friends, who i can and cant trust. i dont feel safe here anymore..