I dont know how to explain it when people ask but im scared I suppose im scared of not being good enough im scared of living but im scared of dying too im scared I won't become who I want to be im scared I won't be who they want me to be but im also scared of becoming who I want to be or who they want me to be im scared im so easily replaceable im scared im too much im scared im too little im scared of who I am and who I'm not im scared my partner will someday see how much of a mistake I am and leave me im scared I don't give enough but im scared I give too much too im scared of speaking but im also scared of not speaking im scared the way I love is wrong despite trying my best to do it right im scared of keeping people close but im scared of having nobody too i know im scared of so much more but it's so hard to explain this constant fear I have people always say I'm overthinking it which yes I know but sometimes I feel so alone and the fear consumes me it feels like I'm suffocating