i am so ashamed of my unruly behavior as a child. i would smack people for fun, make mean jokes to make others laugh, take their things and hide them and find it funny, scratch people's hands until they were red and painful, and do inappropriate things like destroy classroom property for attention. i didn't think I was being a bad person or doing anything wrong. but the signs were there. classmates' parents got upset and I got into trouble at school a lot. like how was i so developmentally stunted to not see a problem with myself until MIDDLE SCHOOL. i have never known any other child to do this and if they do, they usually end up becoming some type of criminal or societal parasite. i can't believe i existed. when people say they embraced their inner child, they have it so fucking easy. they weren't a disgusting little monster that made parents uncomfortable to send their children to school.