i hate hate hate myself. I don't remember the last time I brushed my teeth properly. Yes it's disgusting but I genuinely believe I don't deserve basic care. I can go weeks without showering. It's too much effort, I'm not lazy, I just can't will my body to do it. If I could, I would curl up in a ball and cry out a river until there was no water left in my body, and then stay there for eternity. Then I wouldn't have to hide from every mirror. Then I wouldn't have to worry about how I'm going to survive tomorrow.
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