In the grand scheme of things, I feel really lonely in life, my animals cheer me up and give me burst of cheerfulness sometimes, but it’s not a long lasting feeling of joy, my moods are not consistent and I don’t know how to deal with it…I wonder if everyone is acting, like acting acting like their personalities towards me or others aren’t genuine I wonder if nothing is genuine, even me, none of this makes sense but I feel lonely right now, even when I know my person loves me, I get extremely doubtful in times like what I’m experiencing now, and I’m wondering if it’s me, or what’s the fine line between being needy and my feelings being valid for being hurt I’m not sure..nothing is long lasting, I’m not being realistic because I’m emotional right now, no one would know how to respond to this spill if I went to anyone, it’s confusing and the message isn’t clear, which makes me feel odd for even having a thought like this