I desperately want to ruin the life of the guy that groomed me in high school. Or maybe not ruin his life, just write out some of the absolute abhorrent ways he helped warp me for the worse and get it to him somehow. I want him to feel like shit, forever. This cropped up because my goofy self decided to look him up on facebook after about a year of ignoring anything in my brain related to that trauma. At some point I decided not to look at anything related to him because anything he does is not my responsibility. I wanted to move on, and about 95% of the time I have. But I get genuinely terrified he's doing it to some other poor girl. And that I do carry blame because I'm not screaming from the rooftops that he's dangerous. I'm of the belief a predator is always a predator, there's a reason so many reoffend. And I get so scared Noone will believe me or care. Or that my personal mistakes and failures mean I don't deserve to be heard. How do I hurt him.