I think I might have an eating disorder…I quite hesitant to say this because I don’t want people to accuse me of “faking” it. I’m scared of gaining weight. And when I say scared I mean I’m legitimately petrified of gaining weight. Every time I eat something that’s more than 100 calories, I force myself to thr0w it up. Sometimes I double down from stomach pain. I’m constantly filled with the thought of being disgusting and gross for eating. I can’t stop counting my calories, and it’s getting on my nerves. I’m not overweight, I guess *underweight*, so I have no idea where this insecurity of eating food came from. I have pretty bad social anxiety, so I guess that could be a root cause? I don’t know if eating has anything to do with it, but more and more frequently I’m getting these reoccurring high pitched ringing noises in my ears, and I’m tripping over my own feet a lot more than I used to. Im starting to find my way out of a depressive state, and I don’t want to go back. plz help