I sometimes feel that being myself is becoming harder and harder to do, maybe I've been outwardly lying to myself and everyone around me about the person that I am. I keep hearing people say that they love me but who the fuck is that, who AM I? Nice? is that all I am, I feel like everyday it becomes harder to recognize the person I see in the mirror and I think that at some point those around me will grow to hate me the more I cling to this persona I've created for myself. I know that maybe I've been too nice, maybe I've been too mean? I don't know what I'm supposed to be at this point and Honestly I don't even know if I want to know who that person is, maybe someday I'll be able to scream and quickly figure everything out, maybe someday I won't feel like I'm lying to everyone just by existing and being "myself" I keep changing so fast that I don't think I am who I'm meant to be and I don't know who that person even is. I don't think I'm built for this, I just don't know anything.