Why can't I just be normal? Why is it so hard just to bite and swallow? I know there are so much people out there that wish they have what I do. I need people to tell me. It just makes me feel worse. You think I want to feel uncomfortable in my own skin? You think I chose to be anorexic? It's not just something you can pray away. It's not just something I made up for fucking attention. And I'm trying. But it's so hard. And none of them make it any easier.