I'm like a slow-motion train crash As long as I continue living that's enough but its hard as long as I continue though Honestly if I get meds or a diagnosis I think it could help. I want to be able to work. I want to be able to do things at the right time instead of spending most of the day sleeping or struggling, wasting hours. I want to but I think there's something wrong. But what if its not even something that's diagnosable. What if its just myself being like this. And I had no reason to be like this all along. All I had to do was try even harder. How do I know Im not just being dramatic. I don't know what to do. Its expensive to get it checked. It takes time and money we dont have. Im already not contributing enough. I havent continued college. I try to work from home but the electronics we have cant handle it. And when I find somethingI cant stick to it long enough because I fall back into being sick or sleep even though I want and need to stay awake. What do I do.