So i only have a few male friends and today i went out with them and my best friend and i ofc told my boyfriend and now hes all mad at me telling me i was so touchy with them and firstly i wasnt secondly he wasnt even there and we fight so much over my friendships even about female friends and im really slowly starting to fall out of love bc of this but i also cant ever break up because he knows so much embarrassing secrets about me like my dads a streamer and stuff and i know how he talks about his ex girlfriends and also i let myself down for so much shit he does and wants but the only thing i want like friends he doesn't even let me have them (sry for bad English im german) and whenever i have a problem with something he disregards my feelings and just always says hes sorry and he loves me but doesn't wanna do anything about it i jst cant do it no more