I fucking hate you so much. I hate you SO FUCKING MUCH. I do my best to try to think of your positive sides and think of nothing. You call yourself 'realistic' then insult everything and expect people to like you. I get it's okay to have boundaries but that's all you fucking are. Boundaries, boundaries, boundaries. You talked to me while drunk and your words really touched me, you made me thought you actually cared about me even if it was hard to show but no, you return back to the fucking bitch I hate you as. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. You invalidate my feelings constantly, belittle me, and make me insecure all while you cry too. I really hate how my mind makes me idolize you. I don't want to be you. I want to be better than you but you make it so hard to hate you for so long. Maybe that's just my ability to forgive so easily.