Rant #14998

I was a mistake. Sometimes I recall how my mother would tell me she wanted a daughter, but instead she had me. I wonder if my sister had come first if my parents would have even tried for a second child. I wish I hadn't been born. I know there are people out there who are starving or dying, people who would be able to do so much more with a life like mine. I wish I could have given my life to someone else, someone more deserving of it. I genuinely hate myself. I hate that I will never amount to anything. I hate that I wasn't the child my parents wanted. I hate that I'm even here typing out this cringe fucking vent post about my insecurities.