I’m so tired of being treated like everything is my fault. I am supposed to be on holiday, but honestly, it doesn’t even feel like a holiday. I’m not free to do what I want, I’m bored, and every day feels exactly the same. Then I get told, “I granted your wishes,” like I am supposed to be completely happy and grateful and not allowed to feel disappointed. I appreciate what my parents do for me. I really do. But that doesn’t mean I have to pretend I am having a great time when I am not. Giving me something I wanted doesn’t automatically make everything perfect. These are supposed to be days I remember and enjoy, but instead I am sitting here wishing they could have been better. I hate feeling like I have no freedom and then being made to feel guilty for being unhappy about it. I just want to enjoy my holidays. I want some freedom. I want to feel like I’m actually living instead of just counting the days until they’re over. And honestly? I’m tired of being made to feel like wanting that