tw grooming abuse mentions i feel terrible i was literally like groomed as a kid. and im jsut realizing recently and it hurts so fucking much. i feel like such a disgusting person even though i know it was her. it was all her. i dont want to keep feeling like this. and this is a really random thing to be upset about but my dad is stressing me out with college stuff. some of the things he suggests are late and/or not quite a good idea to reach out to the college and ask if i can jsut skip orientation they said i can do virtual orientation and still attend in person but virtual orientation is on the 18th and this is already the 13th. and my dad was away so i couldnt go to the in person one on june and that complicates things a lot. and now i feel terrible. i can't just tell him he'll probably get upset with me. last time i tried telling him he hit me and started going on about how ungrateful i am for everything he does im so tired im almost 18 and then i'll leave but i gen dont know