I'm such a coward. I genuinely don't think there's ever been a time when I've been intentionally brave. I'm even staking my future on my cowardice. HRT could be the only thing that could keep me alive, and I'm too scared that other people are going to see me differently for it. And it's my body. I know that. I just don't want people to look at me snd think I'm depraved for wanting to be happy.