School is tomorrow and i genuinely am so lost. I don’t even know any of my teachers. I don’t even know if I have any classes with my friends or what I’m even going to wear tomorrow. I don’t know what I’m going to learn, and I don’t know if I’m even going to learn anything. it’s like this every year. I hate going to school and forcing myself to be happy so teachers who act like they care show me that fake pity they do. Or when people ask if I’m okay, because what am I supposed to say to them? I can’t just tell them my feelings because then they get awkward and I get awkward and regret it. I hate that deep nauseous feeling I get when it’s the first day and all I can feel is misery and bile raising in my throat. What if nobody likes me? What if my teachers hate me and I’m gonna have to see them for the next idk months. what if I’m gonna fail everything and learn nothing but to hate myself even more? I don’t know what I’m gonna do.