I think that San Marcos, California is suffocating. I hate living in this city where everyone knows each other, their moms, siblings, dads, aunts, uncles, grandparents, everyone is connected one way or another. I am connected to a lot of people and it just sucks the living out of me knowing well that this mid-city or maybe a small town knew me since I was a baby. And I just want to meet someone new. Someone that doesn’t know anything. That’s why I joined many programs outside of my region in school where no one knows about so the pressure of people knowing me is kind of small in chance. Another is my high school, I am not going name drop but it’s a school where EVERY SINGLE PERSON KNOWS EACH OTHER! I KNOW THEM! THEY KNOW ME! I mean it could be that I did link crew for two years, joined a bunch of clubs, and did so many programs. But it feels suffocating in a way that I cannot breathe without this thought of drama in my school or people shit talking me like I am a bad person.