i'm losing my mind. i feel so insanely empty and afraid of what the future holds. i mean im a senior in high school and everything feels so heavy already. i'm not even an adult yet. i'm afraid of letting people to close I just can't handle being hurt. I feel so indecisive about one person in my life right now, but god im so tired of a busy mind. its like by inner voice doesn't stop talking. its funny i actually get annoyed of it and everything just goes and goes and goes and i'm really sick and tired of it and so many other things. its like im 17 and shit just doesn't end. im thinking about so much right now i just have nobody to go to. like, i miss my brother, it was unfair how he died. my parents don't want to get me help, they've gotten in trouble for it before. i have to start school in two days but i just know im going to spiral out and lose myself. I mean seriously, what's next? i won't be able to handle it.