I haven't talked to my long-distance bestie in like 6 months bc I like her romantically, and I'm rlly scared. She's my only friend, and I don't wanna lose her, and I'm having trouble accepting that I like girls and guys. I feel like I'm making excuses. I can't even tell her bc my mum lowkey doesn't let me have my devices, and when I do, I'm too scared or like not on my own. And I'm rlly sad knowing she prob won't like me back and like js can't face it. I cry every night, but I don't know what to do. I feel rlly disgusting liking my bsf; I'm not even homophobic. I was planning to tell her irl when I go back to my home country because I moved, but it's been 4 years since I've been telling her I'll come back to visit, and I feel so guilty bc of that. If you have any advice pls tell me ty hope you're doing ok