Ive come to terms with it, someone i thought was a good friend to me, wasn't really good. We kept feeding off each other and gradually become more toxic and begin to assume things of each other. I cant stand my friend anymore but maybe its also the process of aging and being in a different life stage that is affecting it. Suddenly, I dont feel much for it anymore, nor am I hopeful in the continuation of this friendship. If its gone, then I am okay with it. Things have to move on. And I have to move on too.