It's always my fault in this house. I'm always the one to blame. I'm just a kid, man. I'm scared of what will happen if I just let go for a moment and stop acting like the perfect little daughter. I wonder if I'll ever tell them I'm trans, or if I should fake my death and disappear, live my life as I wish. Of course, that's not possible. I have to go though so much legal bullshit first to even exist as the person I want to be. And don't get me started on surgeries and trying to go through the healthcare system as a young dumbass seen as too indecisive to be taken seriously. I just want to start my life over, far far away from home. Somewhere I can actually be me.