I’m 23 I take care of my siblings their parents is present but mostly to drop off food drinks and stuff like that I love my siblings to death but I don’t do as much as I should and failed at a lot I also lost my boyfriend this same week and my family home is infested yes disgusting ik with roaches and it’s been so bad during the summer and it’s been making me want to give up and disappear because I failed them. I don’t have children for myself but I ruined a home for my siblings and it’s my fault I know I also recently am trying more methods to get rid of the invasion but I just feel like it will never work. I been having terrible sleep every night / anxiety panic attacks loneliness/ and depression been terrible for I say 2 weeks long right now. It gave me thoughts of ending it… I also been self harming I feel like a failure at life and idk I just think it will be better without me