the big city scares me. idk if im just being hit by reality or im just really pessimistic but im hella scared. i don't think ive adjusted to this city at all. it gets worse when i look at social media and see everyone doing just fine because they have someone they know going to the same school as them. shiii man it's like an impending doom idk anymore. it's hard to get out of bed too lawd have mercy. maybe i should've stayed at my hometown instead. it's not like i have a big dream. how do i even get over this anxiousness in me..