I genuinely cannot handle my life anymore. My family is crumbling, since my parents argue all the time and spoil my little brother, while ignoring me. My mom knows how much I absolutely hate loud noises because of trauma (I grew up with my parents yelling at me) and yells at me on purpose, ignoring my problems and saying it's my own fault for not listening to them. My girlfriend is just perfect, but I'm 90% scared she'll leave me eventually like everyone else has (2 girlfriends and 5 friends) and is so shy she doesn't even acknowledge me at all in public, plus whenever we do go out somewhere private, it's either my grandma's house, or my house, where my parents always attempt to make us join whatever they want to do. But I don't trust my dad ten feet of distance from her (we're both 15. My dad stares girls my age and even younger down like they're meat. He's 50), and there's nowhere else to go because she also has strict parents. I'm genuinely useless, I have nothing but her.