Im traumatized people. I am officially traumatized and i didn't even realize it, on my birthday my grandma almost had a heatstroke and my uncle almost crashed my mom's car and then something's been weighing me down this past month until yesterday I broke down and cried and that's when I realized I'm scared to lose them and then just tonight I had a dream of my mom dying and then that's when someone told me I'm traumatized, WHY HAVE I NEVER FIGURED THIS OUT?! I shouldn't be excited actually I feel dumb, prob cause I'm just numb rn but honestly I realized I'm a lot more traumatized then I called it depression, why the heck does this happen when I don't know, I just feel stupid for not knowing and this whole year I'm like, "WHY AM I DEPRESSED FOR SO LONG" as I literally realized I'm dang traumatized, now I dont have a escape button, sleep is dreams and awake is fate so now I stare at my screen.